The NILMDTS Walk (Ohio)

   The NILMDTS Walk (Ohio) We are participating in the NILMDTS Remembrance Walk in honor of our son Charlie Peacock Warner. We would love for you to join us – we’re team Tiger! If you cannot make it, you can still support us and future loss mamas and papas, and show honor to our baby,

Why All the Tigers?

National Zoo (Smithsonian) in Washington, D.C.They may or may not have a gift shop largely dedicated to tigers,and I may or may not have gone a little “wild”… Why All the Tigers? Dear Friends, You may have noticed that tigers come up in many of my posts. If you click on the menu symbol in

NILMDTS Remembrance Walk, OH 2018

    Dear Friend,   I will be taking part in a walk to remember our baby, as part of the Now I Lay Me Down To Sleep (NILMDTS) annual walk, which is in June, actually just days after Charlie’s birthday. What this does is support the organization, which provides professional photographers on a pro

Diagnosis: Heartache, Chronic. Ok?

Dear Friends, One of the things I’m learning (slowly) is to be patient with myself, and forgiving. I’ve never really been terribly patient! I’m sure if my parents are reading this, they’re nodding along. When it comes to grief, though, part of the “problem” that makes it difficult, is that there is no set of

No Smash Cake!

Hi Friends, Charlie’s party went beautifully. On Saturday night, hubby was working overnight, so I was alone in the house. I’d been doing ok, knitting and watching movies, but once I started getting ready for bed, it hit me that it was Father’s Day (it was past midnight), which was the day Charlie was born

Happy Birthday, Little Charlie

 Hi Friends, I am doing something very difficult right now. On June 19th, 2017, it will be exactly one year since our son Charlie was born. Stillborn. Died. Was baptised. Everything. His whole life. And I am planning a party. Well, not exactly a party. What would you call it? A get-together? A memorial picnic?

Book Review: Beyond the Sling, by Mayim Bialik

Hi Friends of all stripes, I’m currently reading a book. A real book, with hardly any pictures! One of the things I’ve noticed on my grief journey is that I am having a much harder time reading than I expected. This is very odd for me, given that I used to read constantly, and fly

A Little Bit of Magic in this Dreary World

Hi Friends, Today I want to talk about how I see my Charlie act in the world. I have noticed, over the weeks and months of connecting to other loss-mamas and loss-papas, that an element of grief seems to be a higher tendency to “magical thinking”. Bear with me while I explain! To have “magical”

Mother’s Day

Hi Friends, Mother’s Day fast approacheth, and you might guess that this is going to be a bit of a challenging weekend for me. Not only with Mother’s Day, but there are multiple other activities not related to that (birthdays, concerts, and such) that are making it busy too. I’m nervous. My family has never

The Adventures of Pookie – Welcome!

Hi Friends! I believe I’ve mentioned our bear before, but I wanted to give you the whole story. Last fall, I found out about a program called Molly Bears (www.mollybears.org). This organization makes teddy bears that are the exact same weight as the baby you lost (there are some other organizations that make weighted bears