(Posted next morning, due to upload issues. I will add the pictures this morning)(Edited on 2/23 evening to add photos.) Dear friends, Right now my eyes are burning because I’ve been crying, and it wouldn’t take much to get me going again. Today has actually been a pretty good day, but right at the end
Category: Grief and Mourning
Today I’m Sad
Dear Friends, Today I was lucky that hubby was off work, so after we ran some errands, we made time to go visit our little boy! I don’t think either of us has made it to the cemetery since before Christmas. It certainly feels like ages and ages. I was so excited to go! We
My Memory Gap
My Memory Gap The First 6 Months After Loss There’s a funny thing I’ve noticed. We are now at just over 1-1/2 years since Charlie died, and our lives go on being lives, even while we miss him. We travel, we work, we keep house, we even moved. But I have noticed something: for me,
Why All the Tigers?
National Zoo (Smithsonian) in Washington, D.C.They may or may not have a gift shop largely dedicated to tigers,and I may or may not have gone a little “wild”… Why All the Tigers? Dear Friends, You may have noticed that tigers come up in many of my posts. If you click on the menu symbol in
BLAAAAAH
BLAAAAAH No Motivation, No Get Up and Go Dear Friends, One of the stupidest and most frustrating “symptoms” of grief, for me and in my experience, is when I have days where doing anything seems like so much effort that it’s not worth it. Not quite to the scale of debilitating depression, because I do
NILMDTS Remembrance Walk, OH 2018
Dear Friend, I will be taking part in a walk to remember our baby, as part of the Now I Lay Me Down To Sleep (NILMDTS) annual walk, which is in June, actually just days after Charlie’s birthday. What this does is support the organization, which provides professional photographers on a pro
Heartbreak In My Stomach
(drawing credit: Sarah Warner, for MWAH2017) Dear Friends, There is a feeling I’d like to explain. For me, part of grief – not just sadness, missing Charlie, dashed hopes and dreams – is a truly visceral feeling. For me, emotion has always been tied to stomach aches. Not the kind you get with the flu,
By The Numbers
By the Numbers The Statistics of Baby Loss Hi Friends, This is going to be a brief explanation of the statistics of baby loss you may see floating around. Some are true, some are false, and most are simply a little misleading unless you hear where the numbers are from. I will be including
New Year’s Day, 2018
Happy New Year! … Right? A reflection on common holiday phrases I have seen some other loss mamas posting on Facebook about how they don’t like the phrase “Happy New Year”. I can fully understand that, since it sounds like the person is saying the year is happy. For me, though, they are wishing me
Our Tiger Cub’s Blanket
Dear Friends, In my previous post about Dolly Parton, I mentioned that I had made a blanket, and that working on it helped me in my grief journey. This post is sharing that blanket!! It is a cotton blanket, crocheted with just single crochet. The interest is in the variegated yarns and which colors I